the Experience about World of Warcraft

World of Warcraft
I wish i could say that what ive gone through in the game was only positive. but honestly i know it has brought me some grief. but it has also taught me a lot about myself.

I have never been one with high self esteem, and i suffer from Social Anxiety Disorder. So where i was unable to meet people face to face without going into a panic attack. i found myself able to talk to almost anyone without a problem. because i knew that they couldnt judge me on more than what i said. they didnt know what i looked like, they didnt know who i was. and with so many players, even if they didnt like mw, who cared, i could move 5 feet and find someone new to talk to who might like me. i found it was very liberating and i was able to be myself without worrying about the concequences.

Back when i started playing in Feb of '06 i did slowly let the game comsume my life. i wouldnt do much other than play from the time i would get up to the time i went to bed. i met my Ex-Fiance in the game and we had talked to eachother for quite a long while before we finally decided to meet. at the time i was very insecure about myself and thought that this could be a good thing for me, and we moved in together, and tried to make a life for ourselves. but both of us played the game way too much. i could say i was addicted, but i have not played WoW in over 3 months now. and i didnt have any sort of withdrawls from playing. wow gold but i do miss the people i had become friends with. because without the game i am unable to talk to them like i was. none the less things did not go well between my ex and myself. and really it wasn't the game that tore us apart. but the fact that we no longer got along at all. i didnt think of him as the same person as i used to. he was needy and only brought my self esteem down.

immediately after i left it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders and i had begun to miracuously become more self confident and aware of what i wanted.

The person i am currently dating plays as well and although he admits that he was at one point addicted to the game, he has been slowly not been playing as much. the funny thing is though how we ended up meeting again. He and i had gone to highschool together. werent really friends back then, but knew of eachother. and had somewhat looked at eachother with a bit of mystery. he and i hung out with different crowds, him with the soccer guys and smart kids, me with the; punk, goth, loser people of school. so we never really hung out. Back in about February our 2 guilds ended up colliding after the expansion came out. We didnt know it at the time, and didnt figure it out for several months. During one Karazhan run in late June to July, i had mentioned something about the weather, saying that it was really raining... and it sparked up the question as to where i lived. because he knew that it had been raining at his house as well. i told him the state, and he then asked what city. again i answered. then for some strange reason i felt compelled to mention something about Highschool. then in a private message, wow po i get..."whats your name?" i told him and all he said was "i know you!". lol. we hung out 2 times over the remainder of the summer as friends, seeing as i was still with my dirtball fiance. but after i walked out mid november i started talking to him again. this time encouraging the possibility of something more. he came home from school for his between semseter break and we've been together since. i really couldnt be happier.

all in all although the game had brought me some stife from playing it too much, and meeting the dirtball, i have learned so much about myself. i no longer have panic attacks around new people, and i got reunited with a great person from highschool. once i get a computer that isnt as old as cave rocks, i do plan to play again. because i do miss it a bit. but i know now to take it in moderation. i probably wont raid much, if at all. and ill just lvl my alts and pvp. but really half of it will be because it will be an easy way to keep in touch with my boyfriend while hes in school 5 hours away.

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